Let me tell you about my family. They suck. They think negative when it comes to me. Everything about me.
I thought it will be ok but fuck it.
I’m sad. I don’t know.
I’ve been fighting a lot lately. But i can’t take it anymore. This is too depressing.
I don’t know where to start or what start. But, I failed again. I haven’t grad in college. I don’t have any work or anything. My family doesn’t care about a shit from me. Now they’re disregarding me for another failure. I’m depressed. I want to get out of this world already. They call themselves christians but they don’t care about their child/grandchild. I’m almost at the end of my life. I can’t strive any more. This is crazy. Maybe if i could drink an alcohol i would kill myself. Lately. I’m the most fucked up person ever. This birth month of mine is the most unluckiest and saddest month ever for me this year. I hope i could last long enough for this year or months. I’m nothing. I’m close to doin things that would make everyone happy. Yes happy. It’s not sarcasm. It’s true. If i have the guts to kill myself. It will end. All of my miseries, mistakes and etc. I’m asking myself everynight and day. Why am i still alive? I know its kinda a challenge but hell no. This is the most challenging thing ever. I’m almost at my point. I’m almost ready.